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Name: AnnJungyoonKim
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Expertise: loving my family, friends, boyfie & God !
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| 123OO8 // tuesday
2008 is coming to an end.
this year surely has had its ups & downs, & it's definitely been a year of growth.
i've been broken. lost. confused. frustrated. constantly missed someone. been loved & loved. challenged. & given many different obstacles.
i learned to cherish what i had in the past even if it doesn't make it into the present.
never regret anything; it does no good. everything seems to be a learning experience one way or another.
this is also the year i graduated high school and transitioned into college: the year i leave my comfort zone. the year some friends part, while some new ones enter your life.
one thing i learned (the hard way -_-) was also ... "you can't always have what you want."
honestly, i think i pretty much got/had everything i wanted .. maybe not right away, but eventually i was given what i wanted, or at least something that matched up to what i wanted - if not, exceeded. =) with my academic life, social life, boy life, outside activity life, whatever it may be. i mean of course i struggled to obtain some of the things i had wanted, but in the end, through all the hardships, i got it.
however, this year, things were a little different. there was never a situation in my life where i had to wait so long for something, with the exception of college admissions. & that was the very thing i had anticipated for 8 years. & the very thing that i did not get.
of course at first i was miserable, depressed, in denial, mad, sad, the list goes on.. but of course, like everything else in life, you deal with it, move on, & let it go ~
i guess it really opened my eyes & emphasized to me that i gotta TRY for something i want. you really can't always half ass everything & expect to get what you want.
still it's kinda hard to change right away. so in that way, i'm still growing.  teehee* we all are.
another thing is letting go of some of the things you love. i cherish the times i had with those things & they definitely shaped me into the person i am today, whether it be my strengths or my flaws. but sometimes, some things are better off in your past. i guess that was one of my biggest struggles this year: learning to distinguish certain things.
& during the process i may have broken some chains & hurt some ties. but eventually, the things that are meant to stay in your life, somehow find a way to stay.  hahaha that reminds me of a quote i once heard in a movie i watched this past year.. it was in korean but it means something along the lines of "a broken bone is stronger than it was before after it heals"
but just because things change don't mean those things have to stay out of your life forever. teehee* things are just different.
insecurity is another thing that grew in me this year -- something i'm not too proud of.
i can't blame it entirely on having gotten braces. but just the timing of everything was just not that great.. hehehe:; you know how people say during your lifetime, you come across a time where you're kinda mm .. lost? i think i came across that time this year. i was not satisfied with the way things were; i was not satisfied with myself.
& on top of everything, i got braces. which made me 10 times more insecure than i already had been.. (& if you personally knew me, i was already pretty damn insecure. & no, i'm not only referring to physical appearance) i realized that after i got braces, i talked less, was less outgoing, smiled a lot less, & even got a slight lisp -_- overall, i lacked confident even more. that's something i shall fight off, little by little ! 
going into college has also left me with another challenge: making friends.
i honestly think i'm pretty good at analyzing people if i get to know them a little. & i catch onto things pretty quickly, even though i don't say much about it & usually keep it to myself.. but it can be overwhelming because in the new environment, you gotta differentiate & balance everyone & everything all at once ! >_<
it's still pretty early to decide who to completely trust & who we're compatible with as friends. but i'm excited for what's to come. & i trust that God is in control of my life. 
God. i don't want to get into too much detail about my personal walk with Him. but i'll just say that i need to start prioritizing myself better. & i need more of Him in my life.
i have so many thoughts in my head right now +_+ reflecting over a year's worth of thoughts & occurrences is tougher than i thought  uh oh ... i'm losing my train of thought..
mm, speaking of priorities. i really really REALLY need to study more ! + ___ + ahahahahah i don't want to make a resolution of it, but more of a goal i guess. because the new year is really only a number if you think about it. hehehe so make goals all the timeeeeee! but i guess the beginning of a year just gives people that extra boost ~~
people are so different. i mean, i've always known that. but i think entering college gave me more perspective on that. i've been exposed to different personalities, extreme personalities, different ideas, a lotttttt all within one quarter, so i'm sure there's more to come. i guess you learn to accept different things. it's interesting how different people perceive the same thing totally differently. i try to understand the different aspects of peoples' perspectives, but sometimes i lose track of that & judge: another thing i must practice. stubbornness is also another thing that will get in the way of that too. so i gottaaaaaa practice that too.
hold onto the good things in life.
there's this guy in my life. he's not only my boyfriend, but also my best friend.
he's not only there for me as a companion, but he helps me grow so much. honestly, sean hwang is a big impact in my life. he points out the things that i need to grow in, not in a criticizing way, but because he cares.. & he helps me along the path to growth : )
if you know me, i don't really like talking about my problems. not because i want to hide them from others, but more because i think i just ignore things to make myself feel better. but telling hoseong oppa things is so easy. it's basically like telling myself the things i usually bottle up & ignore. because he doesn't judge me nor the situation which i speak of.
not only did i mature in the relationship way, but i think he has helped me mature as an individual. people constantly ask me if long distance is hard to maintain. i mean, of course it has its cons & there are many things that frustrate me about it. but everything has its ups & downs. honestly, he's more than just a guy to me. he's the best friend i have. no one knows me the way he does & no one knows him the way i know him. & even if in the future, we were to go our separate ways (let's hope not   ), the impact he has left in my life is worth every moment i spend with him now.
don't get me wrong. i am definitely not saying that one needs a significant other. enjoy the single life. i liked the single life :) good things come to the unexpectant. (yeah, that's not a real word. shadddup ) plus, having a boyfriend isn't always all loveydovey, happyhappyjoyjoy, & fun ~ there's always a few little dilemmas here & there within that itself =P eheHEheheh.
i saw the many changes i went through this year & the ways i've changed from before & now. & i'm sure there are some changes that i haven't noticed of myself yet too. there are things i am happy with & things i strive to change.
i think 2008 can be considered a turning point in my life as of now.
i am quite excited for 2009 ! :excited: i wonder what i'll be reflecting on in a year ~
i am craving chocolate. ^^* i guess that's one thing that hasn't changed for many years +_+
HAPPY NEW YEAR* !!!
- Ann Kim  | | |
| O717O8 // thursday
so my daddy comes home & brings me red alstros/poms & pink carnations, a cake, the "one, eight" candles, a benjamin franklin, & a collage thing he made for me =) he's so cuteeeeeeeeeee ! (a collage of the newspaper articles i'm in )
honestly, my dad > yours
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thank you kelly, michelle, erica, jenn, & sean for stopping by at midnight ! 
thank you everyone for alla the texts & birthday wishes
thank you boyfriend hwang for the lovely birthday date
& thank you familyyyy
my daddy made this =)
flowers & cake from papa, balloons from kelly, & ed hardy dress from sean. <3
in celebration of my 18th birthday, victoria secret's PINK hosted the pinkapalooza @ santa monica (;
i have a hot boyfriend 
santa monica pier/beach !
steak, lobster, shrimp, & more dinner @ black angus ~~
-AnnKim | | |
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